The highlight of my week is getting together with a few friends on Wednesday evenings we do something called “presencing.” And maybe I'll tell you what presencing is next week. I'll just tell you the highlight of my week. I want it to keep going on and tell you more. For some reason, I'm in a good mood tonight. And I'll look for you in New York City, by the way. And I'm gonna go head into the float tank. That was a whole episode in less than an hour. And that's where I'm gonna head now before dinner. But my deepest thoughts come in the float tank when I'm floating. Actually, I don't have deep thoughts! I rarely have deep thoughts. Oh, I had so many more interesting, deep thoughts. This is called “Pan Khaen Jam.” I think I need some better titles for this. And this is with the khaen playing a cool melody in octaves. This next piece is another little jam on the hand pan, which is another type of metal drum. Of all my problems, the way to use my free time is not one of them and I'm very grateful. I was talking with a friend who said he is not sure how to use his free time. When I have the wellness and the strength to create… you know, when I'm in the flow of creating music or anything, it makes a big difference. It gets me out of my head and thinking about all my all my struggles. But in many ways the creative process is saving me. And I've been using that time to make music and I'm really grateful. But then usually in the mid afternoon, I get a little bit of relief. Mornings have been particularly difficult living in this body. And I wasn't very familiar with playing in the key of A major so it was quite satisfying to learn that key and learn the shapes of that key. Every key of the chromatic has a different shape to it. It's fun playing a chromatic harmonica in the key of A major. (Nervous laughter) We'll see…Įnable 3rd party cookies or use another browser So we're gonna just see how this goes, alright (laughs out loud) You may hear alot of nervous laughter. I do much better on the page where I get to wordsmith all day long. And I don't think of myself as someone who's very good on my toes with words. I'm glad to be involved in that process.īut I showed up to this episode with no notes. It’s all part of the process of healing and recovery I guess. But just know that I've been busy writing my fourth step. But I'm not going to tell you about them here. As someone who spent a big part of my life having had no moral compass, I've got a whole life of things to write about. You know, the fourth step is a searching and fearless moral inventory. I haven't done any writing for Substack this week, but I have been writing my fourth step in my 12 step program. Living with chronic illness, this is a big part of what defines me - this showing up every Saturday and connecting with you guys, the “Living in a Body” community. I just hate the idea of a Saturday coming at 8:08 am and not putting anything out into the world. We’ll see what comes out of my mouth here. So for the first time ever, I'm gonna wing it. It's 4:39 on Friday afternoon and I haven't written an episode yet.
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